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Hojo moved away for a moment out of Kairi's view before coming back with several vials of glowing green liquid and a syringe.

Kairi winced, feeling pressure as the liquid was put into her veins. She shivered for a moment before her arm grew tingly. Hojo did four more injections, one in each of her limbs, before he paused to observe. Kairi shivered again, the tingling sensation turning into a burning one. Her entire body felt like it was on fire. It wasn't the feeling she had when mother's cells had been injected, but, it was concerning none the less.

Kairi glanced up and looked around. She was in a large, empty white room. Hojo's voice was emanating from a speaker up in the top-right corner of the room. Kairi turned her head, eyeing the weird clothing with a bit of disdain. It almost looked like some kind of uniform. There were a pair of brown boots and gloves. A pair of baggy blue pants, and a matching lined blue shirt connected with a built. The shoulder part of the shirt had a piece of what looked like armor on it.

She hesitated briefly before putting it on, anything was better than being basically naked. She frowned for a moment. Something felt She waved a hand infront of her, noting how quickly her limb seemed to move, strange She nodded slowly and looked at the sword and two pieces of green stone with confusion.

Kairi let out a gasp as a sensation went up her arm. She could feel While before you were weak, I have made you strong. Even without the mako in your blood you would have been able to hold it, " answered Jenova. Kairi felt a bit more confident at that, though, as much as it was true she didn't like being called weak. She gripped the sword's handle and lifted it. She found two slots in the handle and slipped the two materia into them before hefting the sword with uncertainty.

There was a beep followed by a whrrrr sound. Kairi turned her head, sighting a clear elevator starting to rise out of what she had thought to be a smooth, stable floor. She stared at its contents with mute horror. There was some kind of weird, monstrous muscular wolf in the cage, saliva rolling off its huge fangs. Above all else, you need to be strengthened before we can really start the more, extreme, experiments, heee heee heee heee haaaa," came a manacle voice.

Kairi however, heard none of it. She took one look at the wolf, screamed in terror, and dropped her sword. She turned and tried to run, looking for a door. The wolf pounced on her before she could take two steps, claws digging into her back and dragging her to the floor. Kairi screamed in agony as it bit down into the back of her shoulder blade, its mouth shaking back and forth.

Kairi screamed again as the wolf dug its fangs into her back again. She panicked, turned, and swung her fist. She was shocked when her fist connected and sent the wolf spinning through he air where it landed it in a heap. Kairi slammed her head into the floor, groaning, moaning, and whimpering in pain. It hurt Kairi gave a sob and turned her head, sighting the wolf bounding after her again.

She screamed and raised an arm defensively, only to watch horrified as it bit down and put its fangs straight through her arm. Kairi screamed and tried to pull her arm out, only for the wolf to bite down harder and begin to pull its head back and forth, trying to rip her off arm. Kairi sobbed, tears starting to stain her vision. Kairi saw a glint out of her tear stained eyes and reached forward, grabbing the sword with one hand.

She gave a pathetic, whimpered, pain filled cry, and desperately swung the sword at the wolf. She dropped her sword, pulled her mangled arm out of its mouth and scrambled away, her back and arm hurting badly. She curled up in a ball, sobbing uncontrollably, feeling her injuries squirm and start to slowly heal.

Why was this happening to her? What had she done to deserve this? I'm not one to bias and impair my experimentation, but I advise you cast cure, and quickly, after all, you have many more experiments to go through before were done here today, heee heee heeeee," came Hojo's voice.

Kairi raised her head fearfully at the sound of another elevator moving. She took one look at its contents and started screaming again as it opened and another monster came rushing out at her Life is going to be a living hell for her. She also has no idea, no idea whatsoever what she's getting into with Jenova. She's getting doubled whammied, Jenova in her head, Hojo to her body.

Jenova is a cunning creature, a cunning creature indeed to worm its way in and infest Kairi's heart, though, she did had have to muddle Kairi's mind at one point should be obvious where. She's already begun trying to twist Kairi's morals, to slowly remake Kairi in Jenova's image.

The question becomes not if Kairi will fall, but how far will she fall from being the innocent girl she once was? The "feeling akin to healing magic" line from Jenova is her feeling Kairi's power of light and not understanding it. After all, I don't really think FF7 has dark and light magic. Jenova would 'enjoy' Destiny Islands alright, enjoy consuming the world and its people that is.

Speaking of which, we never really learned in Kingdom Hearts about Kairi's parents, or what her situation was on Destiny Islands to my knowledge. All we saw out of the island's mainland was that one walk to school she and Selphie were having in KH2 if I recall. So, I'm improvising! In particular for two reasons How much she is able to influence events remains to be seen. Kairi gripped her sword two-handed, flexing her fingers and waiting.

The whrrrring of machinery and the ever familiar sigh of an elevator rising to deliver another 'experiment' into the room.

It used to be a sight that sent terror down her spine, sent her running and screaming, pounding the reinforced door out of the room and begging to be let out. She had long since learned that nothing good came out of such weakness.

Running did nothing. Screaming did nothing. Crying did nothing. All it did was make her easier prey for the monsters Hojo tested her against. Mother had tried to warn her, tried to make her understand, if only she had heeded her words earlier, this last year might not have been so bad if she had.

The only thing offering her fear got her was claws and fangs ripping through her body. She shuddered involuntary as countless memories of being torn apart flowed through her mind before forcibly banishing them.

These creatures that would so readily hurt her didn't deserve her pity, nor her mercy. They weren't capable of understanding such concepts.

It made her so mad. The first night after Hojo had forced her to kill or be killed as part of his tests, she had cried for them, cried for the life she had been forced to end.

But they didn't care, all they wanted to do was make a meal out of her. And like hell was she going to end up in a monster's stomach. Speaking of stomach, her own stomach grumbled, making her grimace.

Hojo was a cruel, heartless bastard. He never gave her food, when she had asked on that first night, he told her to ' eat the wolf ' and the other monsters she had been forced to kill. She had been utterly disgusted, but, by the start of the second day, kept up by hunger pangs and insisted by her mother, she used the fire materia and her blade to eat.

The disgust was another thing she had long since lost a care for, though, she did wish she could eat normal food for a change Not to mention live a damn normal life or sleep in a bed. He almost never let her out of this large 'experiment' room since she had first woken up here.

He only let her out for specific testing, an injection of Mako, or to use the bathroom, and only with one of those 'walking suits' present. What the hell were they called again They gave off a scary sensation, and even mother advised not attacking them head on yet. While she had become stronger after getting Mako in her system, she was not very skilled yet, she could admit it.

As much as she hated being in here, bored one minute with nothing to do, and then killing monsters the next, mother said it was a way to build her strength and skilled. Speaking of which Today's test was against some kind of floating eyeball with wings.

Strange, Hojo usually had her fighting against weird mutated animals, this looked distinctly different. The elevator opened, and the creatures flew out and began to circle the room, releasing an annoying screeching sound, scrambling to try to escape. She watched it silently, this reaction wasn't entirely new. Plenty of the experiments looked for ways out before they turned on her. Kairi made a distasteful face.

God, how she hated those kind of monsters. Silence was her most hated ailment encountered thus far, but poison was a close second. Wonder which one this one was.

Eh, best not to even give it a chance to ail her. Kairi felt along her senses, triggering the materia embedded in her sword and aimed the blade at the flying monster. Flames erupted around the creatures, burning it and causing it to screech in agony.

It turned and glared at her, its eye flashing. She gave a start when a burst of energy flew out of its eye at her. She dove to the right, a bit of the energy nicking her leg. She glared at the creature with annoyance before starting forward. She frowned, something She glanced down at her leg and grew mortified.

It was turning to stone! Her leg! It was petrifying!? Oh god it was spreading! Of all the advice Jenova gave her, that was the most frequent one, and unfortunately the most needed. Kairi aimed her blade at the flying monster and released another fire 2, but the creature dodged and released another blast at her. Kairi threw herself foreward, dragging her stone leg along with her, and managed to dodge.

She scrambled, roughly, to her feet. The petrification was spreading, her entire right leg and foot were stone, her waist and other leg were starting to turn. She had less than a minute. She swore to herself, growing terrified and furious.

Ever since she had started focusing and taking this seriously, I. She didn't want to die, not like this! A whine filled the air, followed by an orange and red aura engulfing Kairi. Her emotions went wild, her rage rocketed.

She instinctively aimed a hand at the creature, a strange white light emanating from her fingers. A burst of white fire exploded around the creature in a nova, incinerating it into a smoldering pile of ashes. She breathed in and out, suddenly feeling very drained Kairi had little time to process the though as she lost any sensation in the lower have of her body. She looked down, paling at the sight of her torso turned to stone. A moment later, she lost the ability to breath, her lungs turning to stone.

She desperatly tried to say something, to do something, but she couldn't even scream. The last thing she heard before the stone's embrace overtook her head was an annoyed snort from Hojo, "Or rather, we can move on after I fix her failure Kairi groaned and came to some time later, feeling stiff, very very stiff. She looked around, noting she strapped on a table in what looked to be some kind of back room. At least she wasn't a piece of stone, small improvement. She rolled her eyes at that Kairi rolled her eyes.

One of the 'not-Sephiroth' brothers then. She didn't particularly approve of how mother played favorites like that. Kairi frowned at that and tried to think ' quietly ', as to not draw mother's attention or ire. This was one of the very few things she did not like about mother, how she could so casually disregard people. That aside, mother could be very hostile if Kairi didn't acknowledge her advice and heed her whims.

It was scary sometimes. Not to mention, Kairi almost never had any free thoughts to herself with mother always in her head like this. She broke her thoughts at the sound of an opening and closing door. The tingling sensation was gone, but, there was a A presence in the room outside of this one scratched at her.

It was It was strong, and it demanded attention by presence alone. What deadly illness, what dastardly wound has struck me so that I need ' your ' help? If Kairi had the strength, she'd be giggling right now. She didn't know anything specific about this ' Rhapsodos ' guy, but if he could so easily agitate and make fun of the doctor he was definitely okay in her book. Not to mention, he definitely sounded like he didn't like Hojo either,.

I have little tolerance for Hollander's failures, its a bother on me that he had to choose this week of all weeks to go on vacation and make me do this," grumbled Hojo. There was a strained silence for a moment before Rhapsodos spoke, "Oh? I'm hurt, I do so enjoy our beloved time together my good doctor. Can we not talk like old friends? Discus politics, missions, lovers, secrets locked in back rooms? Kairi froze at those words.

That was pointed, that was WAY to pointed to be a coincidence. And judging by the sudden quietness from the doctor, he realized it to. If you wish to be free of the doctor, make noise, " instructed Jenova. Kairi opened her mouth, trying to yell out, but all that came out was a quiet gurgle. Her body was still stiff and unresponsive. Dammit, this could be her only chance! She glanced down at her arms, flexing her hands. She moved her right hand, pulling up on the straps keeping her in place.

Almost immediately exhaustion hit her If you can't even manage that much your leave much to be desired. Kairi burned shamefully at the slight. She closed her eyes, took in a breath, and yanked up as hard as she could, breaking the restraint with a soft snap sound. Not loud enough, she needed something else Hojo recovered from his surprise.

We both know your physically fit. I'll give you your boosters and send you on your way. Kairi grew panicked. Hojo was trying to get rid of Rhapsodos! Her eyes flicked to the door. She didn't have the strength to walk over, she needed to An idea hit her. She struggled, reaching her hand up to the small metal pouldron on her left shoulder that came with the uniform she had.

She gave a yank and ripped it off before chucking it at the door as hard as she could manage. Rhapsodos answered, his voice right next to the door, a mischievousness entering his voice. Kairi's heart leapt to her throat when the door burst open with a heavy thump, revealing who she hoped would be the one to get her out of here. Rhapsodos stood tall, a little over six foot, wrapped in a long red coat that went down almost to his boots with black pouldron like leather covering his shoulders.

Underneath he bore black clothing with crossed leather straps over his chest. He bore auburn-red hair, his eyes were, to Kairi's surprise, glowing a strange blue-green color. His face was soft and fair, for a brief moment, before he locked onto her with his eyes and his face grew cold. Hojo sighed and entered the room. She's currently recovering from petrification and I have her strapped down as to not let her injure herself.

Rhapsodos blinked and did a double take, looking her over again. Hojo smirked. She is the first. More will follow when my testing is done. Now, if your done breaking down perfectly good doors and disturbing my specimen's rest, let us resume your checkup. Hojo left the room, motioning for Rhapsodos to follow. Kair picked her head up and desperately looked at him, trying to make her eyes seem as pleading as possible.

It was enough to get him to pause and stare at her with a questioning look. Rhapsodos's eyes narrowed dangerously, he held a finger up to his lips for silence and whispered quietly. Kairi let her head lay back down with relief after he had left the room.

Someone knew she was in trouble! It's unfortunate that you must rely on him to do your work for you, you still have much strength that you need to gain before you can be of true use ," said Jenova. Kairi winced at the slight. No need to rub it in. Jenova didn't bother responding. Her silence was deafening though. It hurt to admit, despite how strong she had gotten, she was still wasn't strong enough to attain her freedom of her own efforts.

Relying on other's to bail her out of her trouble was a shameful thing. Maybe if she was still just a weak little girl she could overlook it, but she had real strength now. She had fought and killed monsters, just like in stories of heroes she had heard as a little girl. She wanted to imagine herself as a hero, but, this was a blow to her newly forming pride, and it was a blow she did not like.

Kairi kept her ears strained, listening quietly as Rhapsodos finished his check-up and left. Hojo entered the room a few minutes later, an annoyed look on his face. I'll need more results to show your progress to the president," stated Hojo flatly. He approached her and pulled a syringe out of his pocket, injecting it into her shoulder. I need you back in the test room immediately Specimen K. Hojo undid her straps and grabbed her arm, pulling her up. Kairi wobbly rose to her feet, feeling dizzy.

She wanted to just refuse and make him let her go, but knew that it would cause a scene and get one of the 'walking suits' sent after her. It was fine, this was fine, one more round of these damn monster fight experiments and then she'd be free!

Hojo led her back to the experiment room and locked her inside. Kairi walked over and picked up her sword off the ground, testing it in her hands. She still felt a little stiff, but it was wearing off quick now.

There came a louder than normal whrring sound, making Kairi frown. Towards the end of the room, a MUCH larger elevator starting rising out of the floor. Kairi's eyes went wide at the sight of a large purple quadrupedal creature with a tail, twin horns sticking out of its head, and a red mane on its back.

How big did they get?! God, she couldn't help but be scared of it and it wasn't even fully grown yet? There was an audible hiss in the back of Kairi's mind. Mother was not pleased, she seemed agitated and it was leaking over whatever link they had between them. The elevator doors didn't even get a chance to open. The juvenile behemoth took one look at her, its nostrils flared, and it burst right through the elevator door, charging at her. Kairi gave a startled yelp and leapt out of the way, swinging her sword as she did.

It raked across the side of the monster's body, but did not dig in. It merely scratched it, making Kairi's eyes go wide with dread. The behemoth gave an irritated snort and smacked her with its tail, launching across the room. She hit the floor and flipped head over heals, cringing in pain.

Flames hit the monster, but did nothing but piss it off. It roared and charged at her, aiming a horn to skewer her. She dove out of the way, not even bothering to try and counter attack this time. Basic attacks and even her fire materia didn't do crap to this think.

She literally had nothing in her arsenal to hurt this thing! She paused brifly to consider it. Big mistake. The creature slammed the side of its head into her, sending her screaming and flying through the air until she hit the wall of the room and slid down the wall. Oh wow Kairi looked up and gave a yelp, ducking down and throwing herself foreward just in time to dodge being skewered alive by the behemoth's horns. She half crawled half scrambled underneath the creature as it indented its horns into the wall.

She swung her sword up at its underbelly, cutting it a bit, but once again only managing to anger it. It pulled its horns back and tried to smush her under its hooves. She struggled to roll out of the way, back and forth, dodging each crushing attempt.

When it next brought a hoof down, she pointed her sword up and pushed. The force of both her and the juvenile behemoth made her sword penetrate into its hoof. The monster roared in pain. Kairi had a brief moment of triumph before the monster pulled back, taking her sword from her hands.

It slammed the sword down at an angle, snapping it in half like a twig. She locked eyes with it. Oh man, they were bright red with rage. Okay, panic panic panic panic panic! Kairi scrambled, rose to her feet, turned and ran as the creature roared and chased after her. She skirted the outskirts of the room, diving out of the way whenever it tried to skewer her. What the hell was she supposed to do now?! All of the sudden, the sound of the pursuing monster stopped.

She turned her head, noting a red energy surrounding the beast. What was it doing? It gave a roar and unleashed a heavy blast of fire at her. Her eyes went wide with shock at the sight before the magic hit her head on. She was sent screaming into the wall, covered in fire. She leaned against the wall, cringing painfully.

Only to late did she react to the heavy footfall of hoofs. She looked up in time to see the juvenile behemoth pierce through her chest with one of its horns, ramming its head into her and crushing her rib-cage. She let out an agonizing scream. The monster pulled its head back, and threw its head to the side, tossing her off its horn and to the floor, blood spraying across the distance. She shook, trying to push herself to her feet, but failing to do so. Oh god, she hadn't been hurt this bad in months She screamed again as the monster began to trample her, trying to crush her to death.

She coughed up blood as it brought a hoof down on her chest. She grew dizzy, her eyes hazy She felt it again, a spike of rage and emotion, and latched onto it. She aimed her hands at the creature and screamed. She unleashed the power, what Hojo had called a limit break, and blasted the creature with white fire, sending it reeling and roaring back in pain.

But, the creature still lived. Kairi's hands dropped down to her sides, her strength leaving her. She stared weakly at the monster, all of her strength leaving her. Dammit, her wounds didn't concern her to much at the moment, grievous as they were it wouldn't outpace her regenerative capabilities if she could buy herself some time, but if the creature just straight up killed her or kept hurting her it wouldn't matter.

She wouldn't be able to hold it off anymore or run away. It wasn't fair A chard corpse was all that was left of it. She turned her head weakly. Standing in the doorway, with a very angry look on his face, was Rhapsodos. His hand was still glowing with fire.

He banished his magic and walked briskly over to her, kneeling down to study her wounds. Rhapsodos turned his head briefly to the door before shaking his head and looking down at her wounds again. He frowned, a confused look on his face. He lowered a hand, gently touching the hole in her chest that was growing smaller by the second. He shook his head and raised his hand over Kairi's chest. A powerful green light emanated from his hands, she recognized it as a stronger version of the cure materia she had.

She cringed, feeling her already healing bones abruptly snap back into place. Oooohhh man, why did healing magic hurt so much?! She'd almost rather have let herself regenerate naturally Then, pray tell, why is she in 3rd class uniform? And why does her eyes glow as Genesis has told me? And the glow is of mako, you know that," snorted Hojo. She took his head and let him help her to her feet. She was surprised, and blushed a little when he brought her hand up to kiss her hand. May I have your name?

Genesis let go of Kairi's hand and raised a finger up to his lips, motioning for her to remain silent. A stiffness entered Genesis's shoulders, making Kairi grow concerned and fearful she might not get out of this. Apparently being an unwilling test subject didn't outweigh this 'president's' approval.

Specimen K is practically immortal with her regenerative capabilities so long as she is not outright killed, I'm confident she would have eventually killed it, perhaps another five limit breaks or so would have done it," countered Hojo. Genesis turned his head to give Kairi a curious look, she merely bowed her head and murmured, "I heal quickly There was a tone in his voice that demanded she obey, but like hell was she going to let Hojo weasel his way into keeping her here!

Hojo and a second man, Lazard if Kairi guessed correctly, walked through the door. He had blonde hair, glasses, and a plain face. He had white gloves, a suit top, and white pants. He looked almost regal. Hojo scowled in her direction. When I offered you the chance to become like my Sephiroth you seemed to jump at the chance.

Kairi felt Genesis's fingers tense slightly on her arm, for some reason those words seemed to agitate him, but she pushed the thought back and glared at Hojo full force.

She half-lied, Mother had wanted her to get strong, but she wouldn't let that on, "I said what you wanted me to say so you wouldn't try shoot me or shock me or inject more crap into me again! I don't even know who the heck that Sephiroth guy you keep mentioning is! Her words had a very visible and angry affect on Director Lazard's face before it suddenly turned to curiosity.

In fact, Hojo looked suddenly curious as well, and what she could feel with her senses Genesis seemed curious as well. Kairi was kind of surprised she could hear his murmuring at this distance. Her words WERE true though, kind of. Though they seem normal humans, eventually the side-effects of Project G begin to manifest.

Genesis, who is merely injected with Gillian's cells, slowly begins to degrade. Genesis can create Genesis Copies , but is only seen doing so on humans, and his copies degrade at accelerated rates. The exact rate of degradation varies depending on the subject's own physical potential.

Angeal, who has fully inherited Gillian's Jenova Cells as her son, never shows signs of degradation, and his abilities are stronger: he can produce Angeal Copies from both animals and humans, and the transfer of abilities between donor and host can go both ways: Angeal can absorb copies he has created to take on their abilities, which he does to become Angeal Penance.

While his copies will eventually begin to degrade, the rate of degradation seems slower compared to Genesis's copies. Project S, code for "Project Sephiroth," was the second and more successful branch of the Jenova Project. It was carried out in Nibelheim 's Shinra Manor. Compared to Project G, the methods of Project S were direct: Hojo injected Jenova cells into a human fetus, his own unborn child within Lucrecia Crescent , a scientist also working in the mansion on her own project.

The Crisis Core — Final Fantasy VII Ultimania [2] explains Sephiroth is a superior specimen due to the nature of his exposure to Jenova cells; while Genesis was exposed to Gillian's cells, which contained Jenova cells, and Angeal was born from one of Gillian's eggs after she was injected, Sephiroth was exposed to pure Jenova cells undiluted by human DNA, and as such his abilities are stronger than those of Genesis and Angeal.

As his genome can't be broken down, Sephiroth's body cannot degrade, but he cannot be copied either as he cannot pass on his traits to others. However, Genesis believes that Sephiroth is able to transfer his immunity to degradation through his cells. Hojo hypothesized that when Jenova's cells are separated, they will instinctively attempt to reintegrate, and human hosts carrying Jenova's cells will be compelled to gather together.

Hojo had the survivors of the Nibelheim Incident , including Cloud and Zack , injected with samples of Sephiroth's cells, turning them into Sephiroth Clones. These "clones" are not direct copies in the same sense as the Genesis and Angeal copies, as they received none of Sephiroth's abilities. Due to their weakened mental integrity, pivotal for SOLDIER members to remain sane, most became mindless drones devoted to Sephiroth and prone to being telepathically controlled by him.

Cloud maintains his free will unless directly influenced by Sephiroth, whereupon he has to fight to remain in control. Through Sephiroth's influence, the clones including Cloud are drawn to the North Crater where most are killed by him. Genesis is cured of his degradation by the Goddess Materia and is taken away to Deepground. Unwilling to join the organization, Genesis isolated himself in a cavern underneath Midgar. Shelke Rui of Deepground survived the organization's destruction after defecting to the World Regenesis Organization WRO , and as one of the Tsviets with a color title the Transparent , carries Genesis's cells.

Weiss also carries Genesis's cells, but his fate is uncertain as Genesis is seen carrying his body away after awakening from his slumber. Earning a place in the hell you so preach. You sleep with the sheep, Deflowered off your innocence, In the very place you will lay, The tearstains streak across your cheeks Fears compels deception The bastard messiah Will be born.

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Master Shut me up, tell me I'm a lie, Tell me that I'm just destined to die, I wanna fall, I wanna fall for you, Get lost in your ectacy As you whip runs across me Feel the pain as I twitch to the beat, Could even the devil compete?

As we strip our wills of sanity, I will let you get the best of me. It's what I do Master, you know this is true Now is not time for rest I promise I will do my best Beat me down, tell I'm dirt, That's what I want to hear, Strip me of my dignity, I know you will get the best of me.

Cold sweat, I hit the floor, Don't know if I can do this anymore, You beg to let me go Get up off my knees, Look in your eyes, what do you see, I know there's a place I wanna go, So you bring me back down below. Religious Experience Immortality, Acceptance eternally Write the cheques, Cross our hearts Let us do our parts.

Beyond Definition Waking up on a mountainside, Like I don't already know, The cruel destination I seek, Never getting to meet, The truth, when you can only see the clouds, There is nothing to save you now What is there to be living for How much longer can I hold this down This pain that resides deep within How much longer I can hide From the inevitable Crashing down the waves of paradise It all an illusion Watch me disappear Into the obscure, I am not the one you once loved, I walk alone on this road, Like I feel, I know I am not the god I once was Before this destruction of the disease Eventually you will see The monster inside of me!

These wounds I wear go to deep to heal. We all yearn for our place in this world, and almost more importantly in this universe.